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If I ever release a rap album in the future, that's going to be the title.  Recently though, it's just what I write in the occupation blank on surveys and forms.  Seriously.  Except maybe the hustler part, but that really depends on the appropriateness of the situation and how you want to define hustler.  I tend to use the word equivocally with student myself.

Anyway, it's good to get away from anti-Maddy for the weekend.  I swear, if we had to spend any more time together this week, I was going to self-annihilate.  Sharing personal space with someone that you would never choose to is nothing less than the totally abhorrent experience that I always feared it would be.  So, this weekend and every other weekend I've recently determined is to be reserved exclusively for re-establishing the autonomy of my ego in its surroundings.

Fact: 720 is the library call number for architecture.
So why do I bother mentioning it?  Maybe because I've been spending too much time in the library?  Or maybe because I've been looking at too many architecture books?  Or maybe because I just like it when numbers mean something.  But then again, I like it when anything means something.  

Current Music:
fall playlist pt 1
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Note: I will update this later with text if I feel like it.
Current Mood:
of montreal
Current Music:
of montreal
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I can't believe I just lost my weekend to what basically amounts to bad luck.  Since it's Nina's spring break, and I didn't want her to spend it alone in Pensacola (not that she doesn't have friends, it's just that they all work a lot, and what with dad being out of town and all, anyway) I drove down there to pick her up.  All the way there and back though, things kept delaying me.  I got stuck in a standstill traffic jam for 2 hours on the way there, and on the way back, the water pump in my car decided life was no longer worth living and died before we'd even left Pensacola.  But anyway, I'm finally in Nashville again, so ha!  My weekend may be virtually gone (I have to go to work in a few hours) but at least Nina is here, and I anticipate a pretty easy week as far as work and school go.
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Mar 12, Mon.  Spring Break wasn't quite over for me yet.  I missed my first class because I forgot to set my alarm clock forward.  All of my other clocks (cell phone, computer, car) automatically set themselves, leading me to forget about the only one and probably the most important one that didn't.

Mar 11, Sun.  Worked from 4-close.  Carmen stopped by on her way down to Florida.  I hadn't seen her since last summer, and I was was thisclose to just not showing up to work because none of my asshole coworkers would cover even just a few hours for me, but instead I went anyway and took an hour long break when Carmen arrived since she couldn't stay long anyway.  She lives in St. Louis with her boyfriend or something now and is researching how to most effectively deal with the thistle problem in Nebraska.
Later on that night, a very troubled customer approached me with a copy of Borat he rented claiming that when he got home to play it, he had found a burnt copy inside the case, and wanted to make sure that I knew about it before he returned it.
Also
Fact:  Johnny Cash's son likes indie movies.

Mar 10, Sat.  Woke up in last night's clothes at 1pm, watched one of those oh-my-god-see-how-normal-suburban-people-look-but-they're-actually-so-fucked-up movies with friends until they left and then I went back to sleep until 5, only to wake up and meet up with them again later that night at a pretty bad post-rock show down town.  In the middle of it, Brittany and I excused ourselves outside to "go smoke a cigarette" and proceeded to amble down the road to Coco's to go eat pizza for half an hour.  When we got back to the show, our other friend wanted to leave anyway.  I definitely wouldn't say that the whole thing was a waste though.  I ate some really good pizza, and somebody gave me a bitchin' Pavement poster.

Mar 9, Fri.  Got suckered into doing something I didn't really want to do all day.  I can't remember what it was.  Just that it involved me being a sucker somehow.  Well, whenever I got done doing whatever it was, no one was home, and I was kind of bored, so naturally I decided to get drunk.  And once I did that, things started to happen as they usually do, starting with Brittany calling me up to see if I wanted to meet up with her and some friends at an icecream place.  Like that's even a question.  I love icecream.  And after I was done eating my icecream cone, sitting there with Brittany and the others I thought it would be a good idea to invite them all over to my house so that I could drink more, and still enjoy their company.  Anyway, they all came over, youth was corrupted, shady deals with a certain indivual named "Mojo" were made, big random redneck guys showed up out of nowhere in my house, and if you're reading this Ben, no, it was not the same "friends" as last time (As a matter of fact, I haven't seen those guys since.)  These ones were much cooler, one of them being the afforementioned guy who gave me the Pavement poster, and another spending half the night reading and then discussing my Zombie Survival book.  How that positively reflects on someone's character to me, I don't know, but it does.
Also, I just remembered what I was doing earlier that day.  I was buying some bitchin white and orange shoes and an old 1960s "The Life of the Seashore" book with pretty pictures at Goodwill, and then (this must be the part where I felt suckered) went to four different stores looking for a new cellphone charger that doesn't seem to exist anywhere except for the barely working one that I own.

Mar 1-8.  I was either at school, working like a little Hollywood Video slave automaton, or arranging for and overseeing the disposal of Nina's car.  It snowed a lot the previous weekend, and Nina totalled her car when she lost control of it on a patch of ice while she was driving to the Girl Talk show that we had been looking forward to for a while, but consequently neither of us got to see.  Also I had to help some kids out in some country middle school with their homework for a couple of days as part of a mandatory community service project for a class.

Weekend before that was just more drunken antics, that nobody should bother to read, but I'm writing anyway because I crack myself up when I think about how much I pissed that girl off when I walked into her pristine parents' house and the first thing that I did was light up a cigarette and mess with her epileptic cat.   Although, I am a little bit sorry, because I generally try to make good first impressions with people.  But c'mon, I had just lost an entire week of my life to midterms, and who wouldn't be acting a little bit crazy after that.

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I'm afraid Katie has crossed the line this time.  I know, I know.  I did put googley eyes on her expensive sunglasses which left permanent glue marks on them, but this is not fair retribution.  This is much worse.  It is outright disrespectful.  And I'll be damned if I leave things at that.
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The elusive wild turkey, as seen by an english colonist, the Aztecs, John James Audobon, and similarly myself on my way back from work today.
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Next week it'll be exactly a year since I moved to Tennessee. And the only reason that I know that is because of a livejournal post that I wrote back then marking the date. Thinking about that, I wish I had written more. My memory is already horrible and I'm pretty sure it's going to get even worse. Also with the absense of any serious mandatory writing assignments, I fear the complete detioration of what little writing skills I ever had.
So here are some things that have happened so far this week!

I finally finished my 2nd painting last Saturday. This one wasn't comissioned by Nina so no zombie birds or dancing skeletons this time, but somehow I inadvertantly managed to make it creepy anyway by adding a graffiti ghost sort of thing in the background that I had originally preconceived as being silly not scary. I'm not changing it. But I am reevaluating the possibility that my morbid sense of humor is just morbid and not really humorous at all. Afterwards Katie and I drove to Young Buck's house. He wasn't home.

Sunday, I went to Starbucks to study in what I thought would be a less distracting environment than my house. Wrong. I ran into some acquaintances who turned out to be very high and hanging out there until it was time to meet their families at a nearby church. Seriously, who does that?

Tuesday I went to my first real day of work at the Hollywood Video rental store in town. First impression, this job is gonna be alright. Also I hope they start paying me soon. I need money to support my morning chicken biscuit habit as well as my buying stuff in general habit, but more urgently for the chicken biscuits.

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Last phonecall.

I can feel it.

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01. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before? ignored other people's opinions
02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? New Years resolutions are for suckers.
03. Did anyone close to you give birth? ha, no
04. Did anyone close to you die? ditto
05. What countries did you visit? Crunksylvania
06. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006? Unlimited free airline tickets.
07. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? January 2, my drunk mother accidentally blows a whole in the wall with her handgun. I knew then it was going to be an exciting year.
08. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting over my mid-mid-life crisis.
09. What was your biggest failure? Not completing all of my projects.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I sprained my ankle pretty bad jumping over a fence in the fall.
11. What was the best thing you bought? My Caddy.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? My friends in Florida who've kept in touch with me.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? My mother's, Zach Braff.
14. Where did most of your money go? moonshine
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? moving to Tennessee of course
16. What song will always remind you of 2006? "Sukie in the Graveyard", Belle & Sebastian. "K", The Clientele. Anything by Magnetic Fields.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you
i. happier or sadder?: happier
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner
iii. richer or poorer? richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? traveling
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? moping
22. Did you fall in love in 2006? sure. In love with the ROAD.
23. ghost question!!: no!!
24. What was your favorite TV program? Project Runway
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No, I still just hate the jerks that come into wherever I work.
26. What was the best book you read? Buncha post-modern crap.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? gangsta rap
28. What did you want and get? I don't know.
29. What did you want and not get? world peace
30. What was your favorite film of this year? No one favorite, but The Science of Sleep was oh so adorable and heart-breaking.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old? I had a big birthday extravaganzsplosion in Jupiter on my 21st. It was actually a very responsible affair in all, by which I mean there was no puking and I caught my flight the next day at 10 AM.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Having my own apt.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006? old school
34. What kept you sane? nothing. I'm pretty sane most of time anyway.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Jesus
36. What political issue stirred you the most? The illegal immigrant/spanish language issue. Why do Americans have to be so intolerant all the time? It's really embarassing.
37. Who did you miss? Friends and family not here with me and Brent when we weren't talking.
38. Who was the best new person you met? Brittany and Brent.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006: If you don't take no for an answer there's still a chance that you'll get what you want. Also, jumping over a fence is not a good idea for a shortcut unless you really know what you're doing.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

There is hot powdered coffee on the way to market station.

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Damn I woke up early.  Seriously, I'm talking 8 AM early.  So while Nina's been passed out in her little cocoon of sheets and blankets in the bottom bunk bed, I've been puttering about the house, up to no good of course, going through my dad's books, making a mess in the kitchen and stinking up the house with coffee.  I tried to go outside once and take some pictures, because everything here is old and beautiful and full of character, but it was so ridiculously hot and humid that my lense wouldn't stop fogging and eventually I just gave up and went to go pick up some chicken biscuits for Nina and I.  Now I'm going to find some more ways to elegantly kill time, and I think that watching the train passing by two blocks down the street right now is a pretty good one.
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So.....I don't spend much time on the computer these days.  But anyway

The rules:

1. Grab the nearest book. Beat it against the desk until it submits.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 4 sentences on your LJ along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
6. Tag five people.

"She recalled exactly which road to turn off to get to it.  She knew that Bailey would not be willing to lose any time looking at an old house, but the more she talked about it, the more she wanted to see it once again and find out if the little twin arbors were still standing.  'There was a secret panel in this house,' she said craftily, not telling the truth but wishing that she were, 'and the story went that all the family silver was hidden in it when Sherman came through but it was never found. . .'
    'Hey!'"

--Flannery O'Connor, The Complete Stories

I tag...I don't know...I don't think there's even five people who read my lj who haven't done this yet because ya know, I'm just so last week like that.

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It's official.  Today marks the end of my extended 8-month winter/spring/summer vacation.  Yeah, I'm goal-oriented now.  Going to get those high marks and make some super-brilliant portfolio impressiveness.  Might as well.  It's not like I have anything else better to do.....like stealing Jeanette's old hairstyle.......but only because I already did.


(crappy polaroid depiction, because I'm too old skool to own a digital camera....and maybe also I'm just a little bit cheap)

Of course, things aren't as uneventful as I make them out to be.  That's mostly just so I don't have to go through the extensive and revealing process of writing about all of it.  But I will say this.  The other day I was at work, and I was checking out this French woman and after I totalled everything up, she asked, "Combien?"  And I automatically without even thinking about it replied, "$12.37."  Only a few seconds later did I even realize that she hadn't asked me how much it was in English.  Anyway my point is, for a brief moment I experienced what is was like to be bilingual and I liked it.

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So I'm conducting a poll. Who would be interested in putting me up/hanging out with me in Jupiter around 7/5-7/8? And yeah, I know that's when I'm supposed to be in Chicago but it looks as though there might be a change of plans pending a certain kind of response.
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It's a real problem when everyone you know works nights and you work days. But. It's kind of my fault that I'm sitting here all alone right now anyway. And when I say my fault, I mean my choice pretty much. So whatever. Just because I'm not in a position to decline social invitations doesn't mean that I won't do it anyway. So whatever. I saw the Walkmen a couple of nights ago. Damn fine show if I may say so. Like easily a good half of the songs they played were from Everyone Who Pretended to Like me is Gone which is my favourite by far. Haven't heard the new one yet, but judging by what they did play of it, sounds alright although not particularly compelling, especially since they didn't play that much of it, which was in total about 4 songs if I remember correctly. Maybe 5. But anyway, about the opening band. I always hate them, right? Well, I walked in all ready to be like, 'God this band sucks, when are the Walkmen gonna play?' But oh no, not this time. Because although there was no one else on stage except for a violinist and a drummer/accordionist(?), they played a mean set that had even seasoned opening-band hating Maddy thinking,'Hey......what just happened there?' Anyway, turns out it was some duo called Talkdemonic or whatever, and they just so happen to not be so bad after all. In fact, I've been predominately listening to their Beat Romantic and Mutinysunshine stuff lately in between frequent revisitations of Emperor Tomato Ketchup. Perfect for the deep sad summer nights that I love.

Time for a walk now? I think so.

(oh, and btw, July 5-8, Maddy + Carmen Chicago 21st birthday extravaganzsplosion, bee there/bee sqr)

Current Music:
Talkdemonic - Cascade Locks
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When my father refused to help me buy a new car after my old one broke down, he was trying to teach me a lesson. Always the apt pupil, I've learned that he was indeed right. I don't need a car. Just other people's cars. And really, the only thing that I've lost isn't mobility, but a major distraction and waste of resources, which granted, kind of sounds like optimistic wish-wash, and maybe this is just my rationale trying to cope with an otherwise unpleasant situation, but then I realize that just the fact that I'd even consider such a possibility already confirms that I'm too pessimistic for any self-deluding nonsense not to mention that this sentence has run on long enough as it is anyway. Really. Everyone knows that Maddy is the last person who'd ever miss out an opportunity to be mopey and sullen over how truly sad everything is. Which I was until somewhat recently. But as things progress further and further along since the troubling event, balance is slowly being restored to my dynamic little life. Like I said before, I may have lost my own transportation, but thanks to no small amount of virtuousity (and I don't mean on my part) I've gained the use of others'. Following that I've also come across another even more potentially valuable gain that chanced to fall into my arms for who knows how long, and even so I'm not certain what I should do about it yet. Basically.

Random: I actually sat up in bed a couple of nights ago because I was struggling so hard to upright myself against a force holding me underwater in a dream. That was fun.

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My car died of natural causes while I was downtown last week so I quit Barnes & Noble and got two new jobs closer by, one at Publix and one at a fancy Italian restaurant. Both pay quite a bit more than Barnes & Noble, so maybe things happened this way for a reason. Then I made aquaintances with some possibly cool Nashville film student guy at the video rental store, and I say possibly because I'm extremely paranoid about strangers and think that they're all predatory lying psychopaths until they can prove otherwise. And what with all of these new jobs and the subsequent meeting of even more strangers, I really can't be too careful these days. Hence the up on internet security. Anyway, not long ago my mom got us lost in the backwoods hill country of Tennessee for a couple of hours. It could have been longer if not for my superior navigation skills. Did you know that 80% of the roads in TN are without some kind of labeling sign? I sure didn't until recently. Also, a tornado toar up half of Hendersonville. Not the half that I live in obviously. Oh and apparently Nina is way too cool to hang out with me now that I don't have a car anymore. Either that or she's just cranky because she ran out of eyeliner or hairspray or whatever the other day. Mom was thisclose to buying me another car, but then she changed her mind. Fair enough. If she can change her mind one way, then she can certainly change it another. Like back towards buying me a car.

Details, details, details......

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Dad is in town again.
Tomorrow we're going to Kentucky to see the Mammoth caves.  I've never been there before, but I think I know exactly what to expect,

and I absolutely cannot wait.
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3:23 AM

"Hey, uh, it's Leroy again......It's about that time......It's about that time......"

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